Blog Entry 1.4: The Truman Show (Reality, TV, and Reality TV )

After finishing watching the Truman Show movie, I can’t stop thinking about it. Suddenly there are many questions I still got confused appeared in my mind. How could I feel if I knew my life was trapped in Seaheaven being watched everything of my natural life and shown the whole world?

I would say he must be a prisoner in Seaheaven (the cave). He doesn't know everybody is pretending and watching him. He thinks all are real not knowing that everything is placed for him in a particular world that is not real. Those are shadows that are very similar with the real things created by Christof who means to monetary gain. Turman's life is really pitiful and if he escaped from the exit of the Seaheave, he would be the one who would never come back to Seaheaven (the cave).

He is the one who leads his life in general. He has the everyday routine and mostly does the same things. After he found some quests of his life, he started sailing in the sea although there are the special efforts of Christof and the network. But he doesn’t know where to go, what to find and what to get at the beginning. He has no answer of his quests but keeps sailing. Later on, he found the exit of Seahaven knowing that he understood the truth of his reality. That is Truman's journey in Seaheaven. Christof is absolutely an unreasonable person. He said he gave Truman the chance to lead a normal life in order to prevent himself. Everybody human should have their own life, true freedom and true privacy. That’s the human rights. But all what he did destroyed Truman’s life, freedom and privacy. I would say he is not humanity. He didn’t get Truman’s permission to do so. Truman was shown his natural life in TV not knowing that that is showing. That’s a big lie. If somebody made him like Truman, do you think he would also like it? He is an unsympathetic and selfish person.

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Blog Entry 1.3: My place in the Cave

                                 According to Socrates' description of the cave, everybody can consider in various views in which I have been asked some questions about my life. How I can know what stage I am, I am still chained looking around in amazement at the shadows that are created for us, and I am walking out into the light and trying to help people get free. I am sure that I am completely walking out into the light, knowing that I am neither chained nor looked at the shadows. But I am not trying to help anyone free from the cave yet.

                                That is deadly true that I am not chained anymore because I am entirely sure that I had been chained when I was in my country where I read about U.S, learned about U.S English and culture from American teachers, and heard about them from my sister as well who has been living in the States for eight years. So, the more I heard and learned about the States, the more I thought I knew about it very well, not knowing that I knew nothing about the reality but the imagination built in the individual's spirit. I had some friends whom I argued with as if I were the only one who knew it the best. In fact, I didn’t know that every poet would write about his/her articles in different views or in general. For example, a poet or a writer who loved New York would say beautiful words and write about the special things of New York. They would not mention about the bad things because they were fond of it, and admired it. Likewise, they only perform and show good scenes, famous buildings, fantastic nightlife and awesome places in the Hollywood movies, which have a strong influence on the people all over the world, to get their impression. Therefore, everything I knew was only the imagination (shadow) influenced by all kinds of physical and mental objects when my life was in the country where was inside the cave.

                                After I released from the cave, my country, I unexpectedly got to know about the States that was totally different from all that I read, heard and watched. I have been completely walking out into the light since I arrived in the States. To begin with I felt culture shock and had to relearn about everything measuring by knowledge that I got from my country. Then the most hardest thing I'd ever got was to try to get accustomed to the culture and the living style. They are very different from my country like oil and water. For instance, on account of being Buddhist, we give everybody forgiveness that is one of the Buddha's saying. We hardly ever talk back regardless of being sorry or angry not meaning that we are afraid of them. On the contrary, they really don't know about our religion and won't think as we act. Eventually, I myself might as well change minority to get along with everybody and cope with everything here as there is a saying "when in Rome, do as the Romans do" in the real world, where I released from the cave.
                                Although I haven't tried to help people free from the cave, I have a plan to do so after I take a trip to my country in the circumstances. I will willingly tell about my experience and the reality to the people who really want to know or who misunderstand about it. They might feel as I did before and full of their imagination that is not real. But I will try my best to explain as much as I can knowing that they can't fully know about the reality of everything until they experience it.

Blog Entry 1.2 My Heroic Day

                          I, hero used to have a simple daily routine till I was in my high school. Basically, since I was my mother's great expectation to get lots of fabulous grades in the final exam, she took care of me very well and always try to get ready for food such as milk, egg and beef that she thought those made me strong and energetic but made me bigger day by day as well. She forced me to eat those stuffs during my studying time even though I didn't want to eat. Obviously, when I was graduated my high school, I became a huge girl who was very much over-weighted.

                         My body changed a lot within a year unbelievably and I myself neither noticed nor cared about it. Of course everybody including my relatives didn't recognize me when they first saw after my school. Then, when they knew about my events, they looked down on me without any reason and called me as "fatty". They always mentioned as if I was totally useless because of being fat and I should be shy on it . At first, I felt very sad and became lack of self-confident. I was afraid to go to the public area and afraid of being laughing at me. One day, when I saw my elder brother who was giving my sister some beautiful dresses as a present after he came back from his foreign trip, he said there was no my size all over the world so that he didn't buy any dress for me. As soon as I heard, I ran away and cried sadly. Later on, I strongly decided to lose my weight after raising some questions as to why people judged one's appearances terribly that was not concerned with someone's real ability, why the physical appearances were very important to get someone's impression and what would happen if I were slim one day. It became the call to adventure of my diet journey.

                         None of my family encouraged me to lose my weight. I myself didn't know how to lose weight at the beginning but I thought it would work if I had changed all of my accustomed routine and appetizers. I avoided eating not only breakfast and dinner but also meat that had lots of cholesterol such as shrimp and port. I also avoided taking a nap in the afternoon. All what I ate were only vegetables, fish and fruits. In the first week, I found very difficult to do so; I felt hungry most of the time and missed my favorite food. On the other hand, my mother cooked delicious dishes that I liked in purpose everyday in order to make me eat. I passed hard time with no great meal as if I were a poor person. That must be the crossing of the first threshold of my journey of my diet.

                        I attempted to lose weight several times during my diet. I stopped eating much and avoided every fast food at the beginning but I couldn't tolerate it after a couple of weeks. Then I gained more weight again and again. I felt overwhelmed and depressed on the thing what I could not able to do. I had lack of confidence and there had a question I asked myself what I should do if I could not make it done. I usually wanted to refuse the challenge or journey of my diet because I was scared not to make it. I didn't see any progress of my diet from the time I had the way of thinking. That was my refusal of the call of my diet journey.

                        With the help of my enthusiasm, I encouraged myself every second to have more confidence as to why I cannot make that easy thing, I did have to believe I could do that, and I must do. Afterward, knowing that I loosed some weight by measuring my body everyday was only the energy to go back to get my desire. Nobody believed I could do that and everybody was laughing at me on that time. It could be the road of trails in the journey of my diet.

                        Eventually, it was true that I loosed 20lb in a month and 40lb in two months. I looked totally changed to happen that everybody could not recognize me at all. I felt very pleased that I could do what I wanted. Some people looked being jealous of me and some people wanted to know the way I loosed weight. They were very curious about how I did. Some people who had laughed at me in one time felt embarrassed by themselves and dared not to speak out anything anymore. Then all the ways they communicated with me were absolutely changed.

                        I did realized that everybody could be someone what he wanted to be if there was an enthusiasm in one's mind. If someone has a big dream, he must be crazy about it and live or survive for them in every second. Then he is sure to get what he wants one day. In addition, as everybody can do everything, if someone looks down or criticize somebody's appearance very easily, it means not only he shows his level of wisdom and education but also he must feel embarrassed what he did one day. Those were my rewards of my diet journey.

                        I found my life was totally different from before I loosed weight. When I came back to the ordinary world of my life, I had no fear at all and was full of confidence. I got some respect from people that was nothing concerned with my wisdom, education and value. But I got to know their attitudes before and after on me. Every time I told about my own way to help people to loose weight, at the same time, I told them my reward of the thinking gotten from the journey.

Blog Entry 1.1: Computer Age

      The most important thing in the role of technology in my life is the computer. I spend most of my time using computer such as working with computer, studying and learning with it everyday. I would say I am totally dependent on the computer and can't live without it. It is the major requirement in my life.

       First of all, I have to keep in touch with my parents, relatives and friends in other countries who are very important in my life in order to pass my regard or recover my lonely time. So, I need to use the internet with the computer to be cheap instead of giving a call. This is the first reason why the computer is important to me.

       Second, not only I can study my lessons or do online study but also read many magazines; ebooks and other knowledgeable books with the computer. Moreover, I can go shopping and buy whatever I want without going there on my own. It saves either money or time.

       Third, there are a lot of entertainments in the computer. I can watch the video, play the online games and listen to the radio or music in order to release some of my stress after work. I am sure that it's a great thing to have a computer wherever I go.Then I can learn or update new things every second.

       Another reason, the computers are the most essential things in my work. I have to work with the computer all the time. The computers help me to keep important document and information more easier than paperwork. Moreover, I also have to sell, buy and communicate with our customers with the computers most of the time. Without the computers, I can't deal with all the office stuffs. Therefore, I have to be dependent on the computer in a good way.

      In conclusion, because of the computers, I save my time, money and energy more. I don't need to go outside to find out the information or easy things. Nowadays, I am sure that everybody needs to be dependent on the computer in different ways as like me because of computer age.